I feel as if Christmas was missing a little something this year. I am not completely sure why it was bothering me all day yesterday being that never in the histories of Christmas have I ever had such any occurrences, but . .. sadly . . it was bugging the hell out of me. I really wanted to look into the sky and see . . well . . SNOW . . I wanted the frozen water to knock me out. . I wanted to feel numb and so cold that I my body refuses to undo the blankets and step out side. . then again. . I wanted to run outside in my bathing suit and jump in a HUGE pile of ice. . . ice. ice. . ice. . oh what a WHITE Christmas that would be. Fuck SOUTHERN CALIFORNIA
Lets see. . Christmas was a little fucked considering Santa Jewlie fucked up babies shoe size. Get this. The kid is a size 9 . . ( yea that's what I said. . she's like what 11 and she's a size 9. . holy macaroni. . she's gonna own me in height) . . . but on accident I got her a size 6 . . I think the lady in the candy shop (aka shoe store) thought the box said 9 when stupidly it said 6 . . OH GOSH DARN THAT DERN BOX. . I blame the box. .It was upside down. . and the nice spanish lady doesnt know how to speak es da english . . so . . . she gave me a ceis. . what a pill.
This is the girls' Merry Christmas. . Baby got a DS . .Chel got . . well. . nothing
Its ummm 641 in the fucking morning right now. . Why do I write about shit no one cares about? That's the effing point. . I guess. . This is my life. . Its not interesting. . but it gets me by. . the fact that I am not in a band with a bassist that fucks Hollywood's sweet heart ( and in all honesty. . . He's calmed her down in a sense. . or vice versa. . ah hell they just work together. . hand in hand they are creating angels . . just hopefully one cannot come out of a womb) and he writes such good godamn shit that it makes me scared to even exist in his world. . because ladies and gentlemen THIS IS HIS WORLD . . we just occupy space . . I am not that guy. . I am the looser in the crowd. . the duplicate face. . the one people see over and over again as regurgitated as that may seem . . I am no starlet . . no face in the sky . . I am just me looking up . . . trying to swim . . trying not to drown . . and this is their world . .
ANYWAYS. . back to life. . I need to take care of myself this upcoming year. I think that will be my New Year's Resolution (Revolution) . . I vow to try my damn hardest to take care of myself and not be such a lazy asshole. . I may even need some clearing out of thy head. . I need to drive somewhere that I can sit on a cliff and look out at a beautiful scenery and settle all my internal conflictions. I refuse to go to sunken city because that my friend is a get fucked while drunk location and I need clearance not a porno. .
I also want to pay more attention to life. Its happening to fast. 2008 already? Godamn. I was suppose to be knocked up by now in trailer park somewhere with Elisha Mueller . . Jesus. . How time flies. . I need to start watching bumblebee's make honey and ants carry their dead. . I need to pay attention to dog's that piss on tires and dragon flies that scare the shit out of everyone. I need to go fishing and clear my head and just watch the ripples as they ripple ripple ripple through life. . as fag as that sounds. . I actually need it. . My head has been feeling a bit to full of information lately. . and the sense of no purpose . has stricken me yet again. . I will go look at a flower.
as a conclusion to my post today. . I'd like to tell you what has made my life as far as happiness with a beard goes. .
Sadly. . I'm starting to think he's the most genius man alive. .
I am SO buying that shirt.
ok ok. . one last thing. . I wish I had a fucking room. . I'd totally deck it out. . with like words. . ha ha. .USELESS
stay tuned
ex's and oh's Jewlie
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